Ups, Downs, and All Around

Its been a busy few weeks since my last post.  

Last weekend we flew to North Carolina to visit with Kevin's family and celebrate 6 months of remission for Lindsay (definitely an up)!  Lindsay is doing great.  She is a happy and vibrant almost 4 year old.  She and Avery were practically attached at the hip all weekend running around all over the place.  They even tried to have a sleep over, but it was all too exciting.  They just could help talking and giggling and tickling each other into the late evening hours.  Although the weekend was pretty low key and there was little or no talk about cancer I couldn't help but think it was nothing short of a miracle to see her so healthy and happy given what she has been through the last 6 months.  

As for the rest of Kevin's family, well, lets just say everyone's life has changed since Lindsay got sick.  I can't quite put my finger on it, but its like there is a haze in the air.  Things are different.  It's another interesting casualty of the cancer, not one you would entirely expect or think about, but any carefree feelings we once had about our lives or the lives of our children are just gone.  Its just like that song goes; "You don't know what you've got til its gone."  Seriously, we all need to try to be thankful for the many blessings we have in our lives today, in the present, because everything can change, in an instant. We have been very lucky this year with Lindsay making it through chemo and into remission, but everyone will always worry now, about her, about each other, about everything.  It's tough.  We never really knew how easy our lives were before cancer.  I think about all of the stupid stuff I used to spend my days worrying and obsessing about and it seems crazy now.  It is crazy.  So in some ways, I guess it has been a gift.  A wake up call of sorts to start enjoying life for what it is and for that I am thankful.  

So, I'm trying to keep up with the training schedule as much as possible.  I took my running shoes to NC and ran around the golf course at BB and Papa's house.  I remembered walking the course when I was pregnant with Avery and thought it was really hard.  Well, its still hard, even when you're not pregnant and have been training for 3 months.  There are a lot of hills!!  Add that to an 8am flight with 2 squarely toddlers the next day and I was pretty wasted the day we got home.  (Down, way way down).  Then I cashed in massage gift certificate that Kevin got me for Valentine's Day that afternoon and things got a lot better!! 

Its been a busy week getting back to work, back to school, back in the pool and back on the bike.  I haven't had a chance to workout with the Team in Training folks this week but I can't wait to get back.  I miss comradery and emotional motivation.  Hopefully this week the stars will align and I'll get out of the house at the right time on the right day.  

See you then!!